Shoe shopping

It's time for another round of shoe shopping! This time I need to buy a pair of casual shoes that's presentable enough to wear to work.

I don't buy shoes very often. Hence, I remember the process of buying each pair of shoes that I have or had, who I was with, where was it, and why I bought that pair of shoes. And those who were fortunate/ unfortunate enough to be part of that process would understand what I'm talking about. ;p

So... how would this future pair of shoes be a part of my memory?

The Balancing Act

A flurry of events happened in the past few months and it's evident that I was going up and down and all around the whole time.

Now I'm wondering... Have I finally struck a balance? If yes, can this be sustained for long? I'm trying to imprint this feeling of balance in my mind now, so that when anything happens in the future, I'll remember how to handle it!

Staying positive and strong yo! XD

Random picture: My (not so) new L.Luthier GA25 guitar...


Silly Optimism, Believe & Trust

Is it more important to remember the good times/ experiences and work towards having more of them, or remember the bad times/ experiences as a stern reminder of what not to do and learn from it?

I am surprised by my persistence on remembering the good times. Again and again the good memories overcome the bad and I leave myself vulnerable to hurt. Why is that so? Maybe it's because I kept telling myself, things couldn't be any worse than this again and again. Call it silly optimism you may, but that is how I am.

I have been programmed to always look on the bright side of things, good side of people. Some people call it as having a big heart, some people say it's foolish. I have been advised from both perspective and I truly appreciate all of them. No one is right or wrong here to think either way. We are all different individuals and we all have different experiences.

Upon self reflection, I realised that I trust and believe easily. Once I've got to know someone, I have this gut feeling whether or not this person can be trusted or not. I'm not claiming that my gut feeling is right all the time. Experiences have shown me that I was wrong before, and luckily, it's not very often. An example is perhaps, some people who have the special ability to mask their true self against people they call friend... Secretly working against you behind your back for their own benefits, influencing the people around you to distance themselves from you under the disguise of given sound advice.

I've met a few of these people, and in one of the case, I fell victim to one of the schemes. But that was quite some time ago, and even though it may have changed what might have happened, I'm lucky that no long term damage was done.

The issue here is, who can you trust, and how to know that they can be trusted then? Well, if I knew the answer, I would be making millions of dollars selling guidebooks already. Should we be always sceptical, suspicious then? That wouldn't help 'cause it'll just ruin your relationship with that person if there's no trust between you both.

I suppose, in the end, it is how much risk you are willing to take to trust a person completely, whether or not you think he/she is worth it, how much you believe in the good of that person...

...and with all of that, leaving yourself vulnerable to the things that he/she does, to the words that steers you away from the one you love, just because they want you for him/herself.

P.S. Dear friends, you know who you are. Don't worry, I am not talking about you guys in the last part. It was referring to old (and some not so old) experiences. I really appreciate all the support you guys gave me. Thank you! :)