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I've realised that most (if not all) of my recent posts have largely been emotionally driven.

Probably it's because that I'm still searching for my own emotional independence meanwhile still finding a comfortable way to let it out (after having a confidante for so long).

And also probably because there's so much more there is to be done and said and so many plans I had that didn't get the chance to be realized.

Whatever it is, there are a few more blog posts coming, which in a way, is my way to let you know what I had in my mind and let it all out.

Hopefully when I'm done with them, the wait will be over and I'll be refreshed and new.

Time travelling with your mind

I was driving the other day and suddenly I thought:

What if, you live the present, with the mindset of your future self?

Is it possible? Will this mean that you will be able to live a life without regrets? Will your life be dull and without excitement? Or will you actually be happier, that at the end of the day, you know that all you did in the past prepared yourself for your future self?

I think a very important question to ask is do you know what you want in the future? We may never know what lies in store in the future for us, but if you know what you want, you will at least have an idea on what you are working towards to, and increase the likelihood that you'll get to where you want to go in the future.

Of course, there can be many ways to interpret the question. Another way to put it is: if you are in a difficult situation right now, in the present... You might think: "in the future, I will look back at this point of my life and wonder... what the hell was I thinking?" or "if only I could've been more outgoing, more adventurous".

I suppose there are many situations that this can or cannot be applied. Situations where you are in a dilemma either way you choose. Confused, lost, puzzled, bewildered and perhaps, curious. These are some of the emotions that drive our decisions everyday.

What I'm suggesting here is to utilise the human being's special ability of self conciousness, and put yourself in a 3rd person perspective when evaluating decisions for your daily conundrum.

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P.S. My style of writing has been influenced by the Spanish translations that I've been doing on Duolingo! o_O

Milestone

Honestly, I feel like my life has sunk to a new low.

I keep telling myself that things can't be any worse every time, and time after time I find that I lied to myself. The values and principles I hold on to reels around and bite me in the wound that's barely healing. I am hurt and badly wounded and I'm not afraid to say it.

But. I will stay strong, I will not give up on myself, I will not give up on you and I will not give up on everyone. 

Because I know, my values will prevail and the sun will rise after a long twilight.

Let this be a milestone of my life. One that I will remember for the rest of my life, of how we overcome the adversities and soar out of the valley, together.

I will not give up.

EDIT: Actually... Maybe it's time for me to stop throwing myself out into the flames.

Where to eat?

Hm... thinking of where to eat this weekend.
There was a list of places to eat that I'm supposed to try but never got the chance to.
And then I thought... How can I forget chilli pan mee? Haha.
And I just realised... the tan lines are gone...

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mufy english test. my "ex". sunway pyramid. ice-skating. "showing off" during ice skating. LEGO 'class'. nisha. sunway college carpark. doing 'research' online. sunway college foyer. "I can't even rmbr whether i actually said yes/yup/ok". san francisco coffee. sunway college student services centre. meeting room. store. stealing sand. desert. forest. Ying Xiao's car. police/guards. juice works. pyramid waffle world. pyramid sony ericsson shop. kewajipan roundabout. SJMC. Sri KL jam around 3pm.  between persiaran wangsa baiduri 8 and 9. white myvi(s). black myvi SE(s). Hugo. Hugo peeing at the gate. Hugo by the couch. Hugo coming upstairs. watching tv. piggy napping. treadmill. Gong cha. Subang Jaya post office. Moo cow. couples PDA-ing. couples in cars in front/ behind me. sunway mentari steamboat. SS2 thai food. chicken feet salad. sunway mas murni. 'i love you'. kayu nasi kandar. sven haircut. subang jaya haircut. phone alarm ringtone. phone alarm picture. number 3 speedial. my baby pillow/ bolster. my personal drawer. one set of undies. shirts. hoodie. lake behind holiday villa. flipping my tongue left. skype. amethysts. nikon d7000. 26th July & 26th July. chinese new year. LDP. level 5. comp lab. Up!. mcdonalds. lord of the fries. spicy chicken mcdeluxe. prosperity burger. carls jr. mcnuggets. movies. certain songs. certain newspaper articles. tights. caramel cheesecake. sandwich with a flag. oreo cheesecake. kura. sake & oyster. tummy ache. traffic jam. toilet paper. snapshot! vouchers. cards. origami flower. hard disk. parcel. melaka. daisies. walking to/ from southern cross station. brisbane. annie's. 7eleven. sunset safari. vomit. vomit. vomit. crackers & water. bird poo. scuba diving. white watches. curve flea market. earrings. italy glass pendant. mcd ice cream at KLCC. jalan batai. klang bak kut teh. pictures in my phone. spilled chocolate and the curve. world atlas in MPH. seventeen. cleo. fail porridge. 'our' chicken curry. worst christmas ever. not enough space. CK jeans jacket. teetwo. the pokeball dress. the 'how was it ah?'(s). fd(s). sdg(s). the spare tires. playing with fats. laughing about palm-forehead. 'best friends'. europe. prague. shoe hunting. hand squeeze. good mornings. good nights! phone call(s) at ikea. laundry at the curve. stainless steel, RM29 each, free etching. so much more and everything else.

gah! the confusion!

never had I met a conundrum filled with such complications, illogical situations and mystery.
@_@

so I wrote a post around and about a photo

actually, there were tonnes of little things and other reminders as well...
so used to telling one person about it because it was something that only we both understood.

will try to keep them in mind 'till the time comes. but I think by then, we'll be different persons already and I may disagree with the things you did and the stories that were kept wouldn't really matter any more.

do I want the history and truth of what had happened whilst we were strangers? I don't know now. it'll be interesting to find out. who knows where this road leads us?

doesn't matter. least I can hope for is that the journey is short and meaningful.

p.s. this is by no means an emo post. I'm emotionally stable...and hopefully likewise. =)

reminder & stuff

My phone had a reminder this morning. 2nd September 2012 - "Dear cmg back"
It's been quite a while ago and so much has happened since, that I had totally forgotten about this reminder.
Though I was kinda hoping that things went as per planned. =p

Oh sdg...

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So I responded to some Monash person who is looking for recent graduates to submit their profile to be included in the new brochure... After a few email transactions and a photo release form, here's the result!

Felt kinda flattered to have my face there for all the prospective students to see. Haha.